Day 433—End phase?

One thing I didn’t expect to hear at our company’s all-hands: company doctors can soon order and administer covid vaccine. We have a company doctor. Soon we may get a shot in the office. I couldn’t believe it. By the end of July I may be fully vaccinated!

The chat was full of comments about getting al together, summer parties and things like that. To be honest, I’m a bit afraid that I don’t know how to do that anymore. I feel scared about big groups of people now. Now I don’t think I will be happy staying at home forever—I think this journal shows well that it’s quite the opposite. But then why do I feel like I’d prefer that? And why am I not excited about the thought of being able to travel safely again? The world suddenly feels so big and daunting again. My home is so nicely predictable. The week days aren’t much different from the weekends. Days and weeks fly past and then months and now we’re already almost six months into 2021 and it feels very recent when did that half-ass New Year’s Eve celebration. Yeah actually that doesn’t sound great either.

There’s this article You Can Be a Different Person After the Pandemic and that notion keeps popping up in my mind. Maybe I should use the occasion and define for myself what kinds of events with other people I like and what kinds I don’t. So far I’ve been a ‘yes of course I like parties’ kind of person. Sometimes I met ‘no I don’t like parties’ people. But maybe I only like very specific kinds of parties?

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